Thanks, God

I don't really feel happy today. Or, let me simply say that I'm quite unhappy today. There were a lot of depression and annoying things happened, that made me somewhat out of control. Not really out of control, but just going a bit crazy.

And God seemingly wanted to give me a test, or, yeah whatsoever-called endurance test. He wanted to know how strong I am, facing the obstacles in this life. What happened today are not very serious problem, but they came together, simultaneously. How could I take a breath for a while when I didn't even have time to think of what should I do. I would not mention all the craziness happened today one by one, but some of them are related to friendship matter and college life. Disappointment, betrayal, misunderstanding, they are some of things that have made me sad today. How I am (still) disappointed because of a friend who betrayed me, and someone who could not understand me. That's great! It really made my day.. Yes, made it become so hellish.

So I went home and took a deep breath, silently praying that everything would be okay soon. I don't know whether God would grant it sooner or later, but what I know is that I have prayed and I have to wait. God is always listening, right? Else, I think it would be harder for me if I keep thinking about things that have made me sad. Our happiness comes when we think about something that makes us happy, right? That's the power of suggestion. Yeah, it's somehow a miracle for me. So I tried to be happy in anyway this afternoon, until I felt my sadness gradually faded away. But it didn't fade at all...

My elder brother tweeted something, saying that he was in such a very bad mood. As his younger brother, I certainly can feel the sadness (and what happened today also helps me understand what sadness is like). I tried to contact him and as soon as he came home, I asked him what happened to him. He told me that something was wrong with his motorcycle while he was driving, and a failure caused by the chain of his motorcycle nearly involved him into an unexpected traffic accident. I was shocked and my brother told me the whole story. Honestly my eyes were so teary and I cried a drop of tears (but good he did not know about it). He said that today was his bad day, and I told him that I felt the same thing. But I cheered him up and said that there was still one more thing to be thankful for.

Yes, God saved my elder brother.

I thank God for saving him. Seriously, I could not imagine what would it be, if my brother involved in a traffic accident. Probably I would cry all night long, wishing that my brother would be okay. I'm not a person who can easily think positively, so you guys can imagine what would happen to me if my brother involved in that accident and had severe injuries. It is not an impossibility that I could go to the hospital, crying in front of his door when it's not the time to come in, asking God to let him live for us, or simply crying next to him, putting my head on his chest and begging him "Please don't go!". That's not an impossibility, but.. But God saved him. He's home now and he's safe now. I really thank God for it, and seriously, now my eyes are teary again (anyone would give me a pack of tissue, please?)

Yeah. Obstacles will always come to our life. But no matter how hard it is, there's always one thing that we can be thankful for. The existence of beloved ones, the happiness coming from unexpected things, and the miracles happening suddenly, those are things that we, sometimes, forget to be thankful for. So, I thank God for saving my elder brother. I thank God for, yes, for every miracles happened in my life.