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Saturday, May 29, 2010

Great Wishes in Each Gift!

Wow, one of those special gifts for my birthday was a blue box (I could make it as a time capsule) containing so many swan-shaped origami papers. My friends gave me on this afternoon, when we were enjoying tea-time at Pizza Hut. They were colorful and there was also my favorite color, blue.

The rule said to open each paper and read the message inside. Whoaaa! My sister said the box contained about 39 swans from different friends! Oh God, bet how long I could open it one-by-one and read the messages LOL

It wasn't a long time to find a message from 'her', my super-duper-huckleberry-pie sister. The message was something.. I guess I should know it by myself LOL (in other word : lovely secret). Then I couldn't open it one-by-one cuz it would take longer time. So I continued opening the papers in my bedroom as soon as I came home.

Whoaaa! Some messages from unpredictable persons! Thanks you guys have made me aware that this life should have been enjoyed. Well I was used to thought from one point of view only and I was used to see the negative side. You guys just made me open my mind. Other papers said something inspiring. Other papers were come from the old friends LOL

I couldn't mention the friends who wrote those papers. Some of them were unnamed and I was so curious. But thanks buddy. At all!

Friday, May 28, 2010

Welcome Brand New Age, Kazuma!

Wow! I'm stepping new age of my life and yeah realizing more than 80 notifications on my Facebook account, soon I should say thanks to 'em from the greetings. Well, so what's going on with the first time of my new age? I'm 16 or 17 now, I don't care of that actually. I don't really make it so special personally. I just woke up lately and found several new messages from my friends. Thanks for the greetings, pals! And went downstairs, met my mom and she said "Happy Birthday!". Walked to the toilet and washed my face. Then, yeah nothing's so special!

I don't think that I should celebrate this at all. I'm growing older, that's the most important thing I know. Sometimes, I wish to stay in 15 or 16 for longer >.< hahaha. Any wishes? Umh.. Wanna be taller and a bit fatter (what?), that ouvalresearch jacket so I wouldn't have a cold when driving the motorcycle, and what else? I dunno what to wish!

At all, I just wanna be errr.. better.
And, what can I say for more? I don't know.
I guess I have to go to the barber shop today...

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Untuk Direnungkan : Partikel Ke-x-An

Dalam bahasa Indonesia, salah satu partikel-partikel atau bisa disebut dengan awalan dan akhiran yang cukup terkenal ialah ke-x-an, dimana x merupakan variabel yang bisa diganti dengan kata sifat atau kata benda. Kali ini, saya mau coba memberi semacam bahan renungan (astaga) atau apalah. Sesuatu yang sepertinya hendak kita pikirkan, karena melalui partikel awalan dan akhiran ini kita bisa menyadari sesuatu.

Bunda mengingatkan saya tentang satu hal,
"Segala sesuatu yang ke-an itu biasanya bersifat negatif. Umumnya negatif. Karena ke-an itu menunjukkan sesuatu yang berlebih.."
Yap! Berlebihan. Sesuatu yang berlebihan biasanya bersifat negatif. Entahlah mungkin dari pandangan beberapa orang berbeda-beda karena masing-masing punya argumentasi sendiri. Tapi dibawah ini saya mau coba jelaskan beberapa alasan yang menurut saya kata sifat yang diikuti oleh awalan ke- dan akhiran -an itu seringnya berefek negatif :

Ke-baik-an : Dalam konteks ini sifatnya kata kerja. Terlalu baik. Memang baik sih tapi kalo kita terlalu baik sama orang, apa kita mau terus-terusan 'dipekerjakan' atau 'selalu mengalah' demi orang lain? Lantas dimana kita bisa meminta hak-hak kita?

Ke-jahat-an : Sudah jelas lah. Terlalu jahat ya negatif.

Ke-kaya-an : Terlalu kaya. Terlalu kaya itu ga baik juga menurut saya. Jadi incaran para maling (aduh bahasanya 'maling'...), susah buat ngatur hartanya, malahan jadi suka foya-foya, dan yang terakhir harta sebanyak itu ga akan bisa dibawa mati.

Ke-miskin-an : Ini apalagi. Kalo miskin ya.. Ngerti lah. Terlalu miskin ya apalagi.

Ke-bagus-an : Bagus dong kalo misalnya sesuatu itu bagus. Tapi terlalu bagus juga jelek. Mau tahu apa? Kita tidak sadar dan terlalu termanjakan karena kita ngga melihat sisi kekurangan dari satu hal. Itu menyebabkan seseorang mendekatkan dirinya menuju sesuatu yang bisa disebut arogansi.

Ke-jelek-an : Udah pada ngerti lah..

Ke-manis-an : Manis itu enak. Iya lah, kalo kue ngga manis ya rasanya apa dong? Tapi kalo kemanisan ato terlalu manis? Kasian orang yang kena diabetes dong. Apalagi kalo pakenya gula murni bukan pemanis buatan.

Ke-asin-an : Bunda sering ngejek si mbak kalo masak sayur terus keasinan, "Asin banget mbak.. Mau nikah ya. Hhehehe.." dan tentu aja di lidah rasanya jadi aneh. Saya ngga begitu tahan garam soalnya.

Ke-cantik-an : Cantik itu bagus, indah, buat sebagian orang kecantikan itu karya seni alamiah (taraaa!), tapi terlalu cantik juga ga bagus juga. Kenapa? Sekarang gini deh, kalo orang itu terlalu cantik dan banyak orang yang muji dia, balik lagi orang itu mendekati apa yang disebut dengan arogansi.

Ke-cakep-an : Sama kasusnya kaya kecantikan, cuman kalo cowo biasanya jadi lebih cengos ato belaga.

Ke-pintar-an : Terlalu pinter bagus juga sih. Tapi beberapa efeknya selain bisa mendekatkan diri pada arogansi juga membuat orang-orang disekitarnya yang punya kepandaian lebih rendah jadi kebingungan. Kadang-kadang ide-ide gilanya bikin orang lain kaget, jadi bingung harus ngapain. Kasian yang lain pada kerimpungan ngga jelas sama ide-ide jeniusnya.

Ke-bodoh-an : Yang ini lebih kasian. Terlalu bodo ya jelek banget lah. Agak pinter sedikit jadi ngga akan dikibulin sama orang lain.

Ke-polos-an : Kalo terlalu polos gampang ditipu orang lain. Bisa juga jadi bawahan orang lain kalo kaya gini.

Ke-bangga-an : Yang ini deket banget sama arogansi. Ga baik terlalu bangga akan sesuatu yang kita miliki (ingat, Tuhan bisa mengambil apa saja dari kita kapanpun dimanapun).

Ke-pede-an : Ngerti lah.. Terlalu pede bisa gawat. Over-confident bisa bikin orang mukanya tambah tebel. Tapi bagusnya, ga usah pake bedak juga mukanya udah tebel. Lebih hemat lah ga usah beli kosmetik.

Ke-malu-an : Bukannya jorok. Ini konteksnya kata sifat. Terlalu malu itu jelek. Cobalah lebih membuka diri sama orang lain. Sapa tau aja bisa eksis kan kedepannya jadi artis (ato penyanyi?).

Ke-gila-an : Yang ini harus cepat-cepat dibawa ke rumah sakit jiwa kayanya. Ato seengganya di terapi biar rada waras.

Ke-ribut-an : Beberapa orang suka mendengarkan sesuatu (biasanya musik) yang keras-keras kaya hardcore ato underground. Tapi beberapa yang lain ngga. Terlalu ribut juga bisa mengganggu yang lain.

Ke-lembut-an : Terlalu lembut juga ga bagus. Musik-musik lembut emang enak didengar, tapi dalam waktu yang pas. Serasa bodoh buat saya kayanya kalo lagi sleepy-time di sekolah denger lagu-lagu klasik tempo Adagio. Sekolah bisa jadi hotel kalo gitu sih.

Ke-keras-an : Terlalu keras tuh ga baik. Kalo anda dikerasin sama orang lain suka ngga? Ngga kan? Makanya jangan terlalu keras.

Ke-rapih-an : Rapih itu bagus. Terlalu rapih juga bisa membuat anda terlihat kaku di mata orang. Terlihat sebagai karakter yang kaku, disiplin, sangat tegas. Kalau ada sedikit garis-garis kusut kan kelihatannya disiplin tapi masih bisa terbuka.

Ke-kusut-an : Kucel bin kumel ngga bagus lah! Masa mau ke undangan kaya gitu? Lebih rapih lah sikit.. Kan terlihat okay.

Masih banyak lagi sih contoh-contoh yang lain. Tapi kalau dilihat ternyata memang lebih ke arah negatif kalau buat saya sih. Yah ada sisi positifnya, tapi ya.. tetep aja gimana pun juga yang berlebihan itu ngga baik. Air kalo berlebihan bisa luber ato banjir. Api kalo berlebihan bisa kebakaran. Panas kalo berlebihan bisa bikin gerah. Dingin kalo berlebihan bisa bikin beku. Jadi, apapun yang kita nikmati kalau bisa jangan terlalu berlebihan. Bukankah Tuhan ngga suka dengan segala sesuatu yang berlebihan? Iya kan?

SMS Pending dan Hadiah Langsung Koneksi Lemot!

Haduh, kali ini memang cuaca juga salah satu faktor yang cukup ambil bagian di kasus ini. Koneksi lemot! Ah, kasusnya terlalu klasik karena terlalu sering dan orang-orang udah mulai bosen termasuk saya yang dari tadi dalam hati ngutuk-ngutuk ISP sama cellular operator yang bikin tangan gatel pengen nonjok.

Hujan! Petir! Whadefak! Sebenernya harus disyukuri sih soalnya kalo ga hujan juga ntar panas ato kegerahan (manusia tuh ya emang dilematis, kalo panas minta ujan eh kalo ujan minta panas). Lagian hujan juga emang hadiah dari Tuhan buat semua makhluknya. Tapi kalo kebanyakan kan ribet juga. Misalnya ujan bikin koneksi jadi jelek, apalagi buat internet!

Aaargh! SMS pending terus. Harus ngirim sampe berkali-kali. Mending ada yang nyampe, taunya ngga ada yang nyampe. Dan baru delivered pas udah beberapa jam kemudian! Bangke!! Kualitasnya dong! Jangan cuman ngembor-ngemborin terus bonus ato harga murah ini itu ini itu. Saya sih ngga begitu kepengaruh sama iklan di tivi. Soalnya baca di majalah Pulsa juga katanya semurah-murahnya ato gratisan yang dikasih sama operator tetep aja ada biaya 'bocor' yang harus kita bayar. Halah, gratisan ini itu ini itu.. Gratis sih iya tapi pendingnya najooong!

Eh, penderitaan si saya belum berakhir. Dan mungkin juga penderitaan yang sama dengan yang beberapa dari kalian rasakan. Saya lagi internetan. Eh, taunya ngaruh juga! Twitter ga bisa dibuka (malahan ngelagg tai banget), Facebook juga harus di refresh berulang kali, maen game ga nge-load sampe tabnya di close, terus Tweetdeck error ga bisa posting status, mau bikin postingan di blog gagal. Yang sembuh cuman torrent aja yang lagi download electro-club. Tuh tanda loading masih muter-muter di tab Twitter sama Facebook. Pengen ditendang sumpahnya tuh modem asuuuu!!!

Halah,, kapan ya koneksi di Indonesia bisa lebih baik?
Seengganya ngga ada ngelagg ato lemot kaya gini lah kalo internetan. Urusan speed bisa bertahap.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

So Shameless

Lyric and Arrangement by Kazuma Dewanto Ivanov
Using piano, played on D major

I wonder how you keep hanging up on me
I wonder why you keep acting like that shit
So then I try to make you realize
That you're shitty shameless!

Thick face, ears of deaf, can you hear me?
Blind eyes, helplessly, are you still there?
So then I try to make you realize
That you're shitty shameless!

I give you my hand when you need me
I give you my money when you ask me
But soon I realize that you just
Betray me and you're backstabber, o damn!

Reffrain :
Shameless, shameless, you're Mr.Shameless
The eyes can't see and ears can't hear voices
Pathetic, pathetic, you're Mr.Pathetic
What can I say more than "To Hell With Ya?!", hahahaha!

Thick face, ears of deaf, can you hear me?
Blind eyes, helplessly, are you still there?
So then I try to make you realize
That you're shitty shameless!

I give you my hand when you need me
I give you my money when you ask me
But soon I realize that you just
Betray me and you're backstabber, o damn!
 
Reffrain :
Shameless, shameless, you're Mr.Shameless
The eyes can't see and ears can't hear voices
Pathetic, pathetic, you're Mr.Pathetic
What can I say more than "To Hell With Ya?!", hahahaha!

Bridge :
You think you're kinda perky with those fucking acts?
You just make shame of yourself, dude
And what can you do as I see all of the facts
You stab my back and leave me dying sick

Reffrain :
Shameless, shameless, you're Mr.Shameless
The eyes can't see and ears can't hear voices
Pathetic, pathetic, you're Mr.Pathetic
What can I say more than "To Hell With Ya?!", hahahaha!
2x
Gotta burn your face, dude! Hahahahaha!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Glamorous Prisoner Alike

I don't care. No matter how beautiful it is made from the glass, diamond, shitty gold, silver. No matter how many things it has within, how many stuffs it has within. Once it's called prison, so yeah it is. You might remember the story about a hummingbird in a cage. The owner decorated the cage with gold, ornaments, put a swing, water-glass, and little comfy pillows into the cage. That little hummingbird might enjoy the 'facilities', but he didn't get his freedom. So, no matter how luxurious it was, the bird wouldn't sing or hum. The owner asked that little pity hummingbird to hum and sing. He (a bit) forced the bird to sing whereas that little bird was so tired. Everytime the bird looked out the window and saw his friends humming chirping singing happily on the branch, he tried to get out of the cage. It made him basically depressed so he wouldn't sing. If the owner kept doing it to him, he could die miserably.

Or remember about the luxurious prisoners? They might be corruptor or millionaire, had earned a lot of money. So once they sentenced to be jailed, they could pay for extra facilities for their jails. How come! 42 inch LCD television, mini-bar, comfy couch, king-size bed, air conditioner, tablet PC, coffee-maker, even private bathroom inside a jail? Were they building a hotel room or what? Hahahaha, I know one thing and I'm totally sure. They weren't ready for the jail so they tried to 'move' their houses to the prison. Deep inside their heart should've said like this, "However, this is a 3x4 metres square jail where I can't breathe the fresh air. Air conditioner might be able to set the temperature as cool as we wish. But it couldn't give the real fresh air like the one outside there. They don't set me free".

Get the pressures from them, threatened, given (read : forced) so many dumpy tasks to do, so quickly I become quite rascal. I always try to get out and runaway, eventhough runaway won't solve the problem. At least, I just want to breathe the fresh air. I just want to sing happily like the hummingbirds singing on the branch of apple tree. I don't care whether its service is great. I know that what's written in the leaflet is different with the fact. For this long, my parents pay for my sadness. Because I don't get anything. I get the sadness and threats. Unnoticed, left alone, and I don't belong.

Dear God.. I wonder how long I can survive there..

4 Years Has Explained It All

I should hadn't decided it or changed my decision of moving. Or I might be in confusion and trapped in a dilemma so I decided to move. But lately I was aware that it wasn't the answer for what I'd wanted as my best. I've been there, in that place for about 4 years. Counted since 2006, when I was in 2nd year of primary high school. So I must have seen so many changes and I must have known what got worse and got better. In percentage, I bet it's about 75% to 80% the things get worse. I lost the best teachers ever and yeah so hard to ask them to come back. Perhaps some of them are too tired to come back, or unwilling to teach in that place again. Especially if they realise the newest condition of the place. I'm not going to blame them for departing the place because of the guys. So, will I do the same like they've done?

Majority, guys who have been in that place before and now they're out of that place. They're unwilling to come back (to sign). They've seen the changes and what do they think about that?

"Suck it!"
"Oh God, I don't believe that. Totally changed!"
"I can't believe that. Everything gets worse, huh?"
"Pah! I don't wanna come back there. It's enough! 3 years are enough for me."
"Hahaha! So happy being outta there. I'm unbounded!"
"Wow, how could?"
"Thanks God I've been graduated and live in another story!"
"I don't know everyone here. Everyone has changed, so does the environment."
"All are rascals, eh?"


So happy to be like them. I wish I can be unbounded. Hey, why should I learn or go to school if I'm not happy being there?

Feel Pity of My Parents, But Also Irritated..

Dilemma. Shit, I don't wanna be trapped in this situation. Yeah, a situation where I should be pity of my parents whereas what they do or what they say are totally irritating. Little fights can cause bigger and bigger trouble. And the peak is when one of us starts crying. Well actually it's damnfully hurting. Mom keeps making me annoyed and irritated until finally I scream aloud or runaway from home as the climax. Dad is hardly ever at home. Getting busier day by day with his works, so I almost lose the figure of dad. The saddest part, when every birthday my dad is not around. Singapore, Borneo, Bali, Thailand, what I want for the birthday is presence. IDR 500.000 is in my hand, but it's going to be useless when the family is incomplete. I've been like that, birthday without my dad even without both of my parents for so long. Soon I get used to celebrate it with my friends. So once we celebrate it together at home, I feel so strange. When I ask them to gather on my birthday, and I really really want them to be there. Instead they reply, "You should understand! You never want to understand. How can you grow up if so? Dad is busy and you keep asking him to be there! You have to think about that, don't be selfish!". Mom, look at me. I'm a boy without dad if so. See, how did dad come home and stayed for a night only then he'd fly to another city, over and over again?!

The decision to move. It's in my hand now. I can decide to move or not. I wish to move, yeah I wish. But, I look back at my parents. They have paid for that expensive, and when I decide to move, it means that they should pay more. I see how hard they've worked for us. They carry heavier loads than me. I'm depressed, harassed, devastated, threatened indirectly, insulted, even forced to do something I don't like (or at least I'm too tired to do that). That's all the main point, why I should move soon. But.. look back at my parents again. Feel so pity of them. I should stay in my school, yeah.. keep tortured, at last for last a year. But, that year, it's gonna be hard year. Counting day by day, I wonder how hard it will be. How many threats and insults I should face again?

Definitely can't be considered as 'healthy' person. I'm so sick. So sick. Let me make a confession here : I keep trying all the way to run and to refresh my mind from those shits. The way I refresh my mind and get out from that fucking life : Dancing, listening to the music, playing music, going crazy (like laughing aloud or getting drunk), and.. the last point I shouldn't mention it. Calm down, I won't mess with anyone. And how many nights should I face with tears? Midnight with tears, I almost have it every night. I haven't done something for my parents. So I should do something for them. But sometimes their words are annoying and make me mad. I don't know what to say but actually I hate to be like this. Sometimes I think to cut off my head or hang my neck on that birch tree or burn myself or drowning myself into a hot tub.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

My Favorite : Gaga's Pieces

Stefani Joanne Angelina Germanotta (Lady Gaga), born on March, 28 1986. Worked as a songwriter for fellow label artists and captured the attention of Akon, who recognized her vocal abilities, and got her signed to his own label, Kon Live Distribution. Her debut album, The Fame, was released on August 19, 2008. In addition to receiving generally positive reviews, it reached number one in Canada, Austria, Germany and Ireland, and topped the Billboard Top Electronic Albums chart. Its first two singles, "Just Dance" and "Poker Face", co-written and co-produced with RedOne, became international number-one hits, topping the Billboard Hot 100 in the United States as well as the charts of other countries. The album later earned a total of six Grammy Award nominations and won awards for Best Electronic/Dance Album and Best Dance Recording. In early 2009 she embarked on her first headlining tour, The Fame Ball Tour. By the fourth quarter of the year, she had released her second studio album The Fame Monster, with the global chart-topping lead single "Bad Romance", as well as having embarked on her second headlining tour of the year, The Monster Ball Tour.

The short info above is taken from wikipedia. I started listening to Gaga's songs since the first time I heard "Just Dance" from my phone (which I didn't know how could it be on my phone). Started downloading other Gaga's songs and now I have "The Fame Monster" album on my iTunes playlist. Gaga has great ideas in style. As you may know that her style has influenced a big number of people. Her fashion style and "finger-eyeglasses" has been her trademark.

My favorite Gaga's songs :
Poker Face


Two dalmatians.. So quaint --"




Some friends of mine commented, "She looked like a scarecrow.."

Gotta buy eyeglasses like hers!

Alejandro (I keep waiting for this music video! Whoaaa! Launch the MV quicker!)






Bad Romance

The first scene is so crowded

Look! omg what did she do with her hair? A hairdo is bunny-ear alike
Hair color like a carrot LOL


Telephone (featuring Beyoncé)






 Diet coke as hair roll >.<

Red telephone, reminds me to my cousin's phone toy


Remembering Barney and Friends


Remembering my childhood. I always sat in front of the television on the morning waiting for Barney and Friends show. Then I'd sing and dance following the dance and the music. Hahahaha! It must have been a long long time and still I remember the song, especially the theme song and "I Love You" song. Realizing that I've grown up so I guess it will be a bit ridiculous if I keep dancing following the dance and the music on the show. So I just watch the show while keeping little children dancing jumping and singing during the show.

Barney is a dinosaur from our imagination
And when he's tall
He's what we call a dinosaur sensation


Barney's friends are big and small
They come from lots of places
After school they meet to play
And sing with happy faces


Barney shows us lots of things
Like how to play pretend
ABC's, and 123's
And how to be a friend


Barney comes to play with us
Whenever we may need him
Barney can be your friend too
If you just make-believe him!


Ah, one of my favorite episodes was when the children and Barney sang "Mr.Sun"
Here is the lyric below :


Oh Mr. Sun. Sun. Mr. golden sun. Please shine down on me.
Oh Mr. Sun. Sun. Mr. golden sun. Hiding behind a tree.
These little children are asking you. To please come out so we can play with you.
Oh Mr. Sun. Sun. Mr. golden sun. Please shine down on me.

Oh Mr. Sun. Sun. Mr. golden sun. Please shine down on me.
Oh Mr. Sun. Sun. Mr. golden sun. Hiding behind a tree.
These little children are asking you. To please come out so we can play with you.
Oh Mr. Sun. Sun. Mr. golden sun. Please shine down on, please shine down on,
Please shine down on me!


And also "The Isty Bitsy Spider" song.

The itsy bitsy spider went up the water spout
Down came the rain and washed the spider out
Up came the sun and dried up all the rain
The itsy bitsy spider went up the spout again 


And at last we used to sing this song. What a lovely song! Hahaha.. Reminds me to my childhood :D Missing it so much!

I love you,
You love me,
We're a happy family,

With a great big hug,
And a kiss from me to you,
Won't you say you love,

Me TOO!

P-po-po-po-poker Face, P-po-po-poker Face..

Mum mum mum mah
Mum mum mum mah

I wanna hold em' like they do in Texas Plays
Fold em' let em' hit me raise it baby stay with me (I love it)
Luck and intuition play the cards with Spades to start
And after he's been hooked I'll play the one that's on his heart

Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-e-ohh-oh-oh
I'll get him hot, show him what I've got
Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-e-ohh-oh-oh,
I'll get him hot, show him what I've got

Can't read my,
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(She's got to love nobody)
Can't read my
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(She's got to love nobody)

P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)
P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)

I wanna roll with him a hard pair we will be
A little gambling is fun when you're with me I love it)
Russian Roulette is not the same without a gun
And baby when it's love if it's not rough it isn't fun, fun
[Poker Face Lyrics On http://www.elyricsworld.com/ ]
Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-e-ohh-oh-oh
I'll get him hot, show him what I've got
Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-e-ohh-oh-oh,
I'll get him hot, show him what I've got

Can't read my,
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(She's got to love nobody)
Can't read my
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(She's got to love nobody)

P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)
P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)

I won't tell you that I love you
Kiss or hug you
Cause I'm bluffin' with my muffin
I'm not lying I'm just stunnin' with my love-glue-gunning
Just like a chick in the casino
Take your bank before I pay you out
I promise this, promise this
Check this hand cause I'm marvelous

Can't read my,
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(She's got to love nobody)
Can't read my
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(She's got to love nobody)

Can't read my,
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(She's got to love nobody)
Can't read my
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(She's got to love nobody)

Can't read my,
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(She's got to love nobody)
Can't read my
Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
(She's got to love nobody)

P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)
P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)

P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)
P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)

P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)
P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face
(Mum mum mum mah)

Friday, May 14, 2010

Pathetically Monotonous

We (representing my friends who think the same thing) have seen the changes and the differences. The conclusion : 'It' doesn't work or get better day by day. How did we know that? We've stayed there for a long time. For me, I've been there for 4 years. I must have seen so many changes happened, and it just goes on the wrong side. Getting worse day by day. Doesn't it suck?

Working on the same job (no better changes, no fair payment either), playing the same song, performing the same performances on the same narrow stage, doing the same shitty works. Hey, wait a sec. They hire the same persons in each shows! Why do they do that?

"You've been playing so good so we trust you."
"You're easy to be hired. We all know you well."
"Ah, no need preparation anymore. Just perform!"
"We believe that you'll perform the best. You've performed so many performances. Just perform."
"Well.. Can we pay by this snack (kids snacks)?"
"Because you've been used and we trust that you'll work for us."

What the fvk!! The hell with that! We've been used, and.. Oh God, I gotta get outta the place!

"Prepare the instruments!"
"You should bring your own cable!"
"Find the tripod!"

We're performers, but they urge us to prepare everything by ourselves. No better services. The place must be disqualified as a stage. Shitty damnfully disgusting!
The most disgusting thing called "You-mock-you-eat". They insult us, mock us, but they'll need us in an event.

"Ah, you guys just wasting your time singing and playing the shitty music!"
"Go to the class! Music is not so important!"
"You're a naughty student, so naughty.."

In other times :

"Hey, you guys gotta play the music for the ............ event. Can you perform for us, please..."
"Go to the music room! You guys gotta prepare for some pieces!"
"You're so clever and genius in music! I guess you should perform us some pieces.."

Hypocrite! Mid-finger up for 'em.

Because I'm Stupid

내 머리는 너무나 나빠서
너 하나밖에 난 모르고
다른 사람을 보고있는 넌
이런 내마음도 모르겠지
너의 하루에 나란 없겠지
또 추억조차 없겠지만
너만 바라만 보고있는 난
자꾸 눈물이 흐르고있어

너의 뒷모습을 보는것도 난 행복이야

아직 나의 마음을 몰라도
끝내 스치듯이 가도

니가 너무 보고싶은 날엔

너무 견디기 힘든 날에는
너를 사랑한다 입가에 맴돌아
혼자 다시 또 crying for you
혼자 다시 또 missing for you
Baby! I love you! I'm waiting for you!

너의 하루에 난 없겠지

또 기억조차 없겠지만
너만 바라만 보고있는 나
혼자 추억을 만들고 있어

내겐 사랑이란 아름다운 상처같아

너의 예쁜 미소를 보아도
함께 난 웃지도 못해

니가 너무 생각나는 날엔

가슴 시리고 슬픈 날에는
니가 보고싶다 입가에 맴돌아
혼자 다시 또 crying for you
혼자 다시 또 missing for you
Baby! I love you! I'm waiting for you!

Bye bye never say good bye

이렇게 잡지 못하지만
I need you 아무 말도 못해 I want you 바래도 다시 바래도

니가 너무 보고싶은 날엔

너무 견디기 힘든 날에는
너를 사랑한다 입가에 맴돌아
혼자 다시 또 crying for you
니가 너무 생각나는 날엔
가슴 시리고 슬픈 날에는
니가 보고싶다 입가에 맴돌아
혼자 다시 또crying for you
혼자 다시 또 missing for you
Baby! I love you! I'm waiting for you! 


Nae meoriga neomuna nappaseo
Neo hanapakke nan moreugo
Tareun sarameun pogoittneun neon
Ireon naema-eumdo moreugettji

Neoui harue naran eoptgettji
Tto chu’eokjoch’a eoptgettjiman
Neoman paraman pogoittneun nan
Chakku nunmuli heureugoisseo

Neoui dwaetmoseubeul poneungeotdo nan haengbokiya
Ajik naui ma-eumeul mollado
Kkeutnae seuch’ideusi kado

Niga neomu pogosip’eun nalen
Neomu kyeondigi himdeul naleneun
Neoreul saranghanda ipgae maemdola
Honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU
Honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU
Baby! I love you! I’m waiting for you!

Neoui harue nan eoptgettji
Tto kieokjoch’a eoptgettjiman
Neoman paraman pogoittneun nan
Honja ch’ueokeul mandeulgo isseo

Naegen sarangiran areumdaun sangch’eokat’a
Neoui yeppeun misoreul poado
Hamkke nan utjido mothae

Niga neomu saenggaknaneun nalen
Kaseum sirigo seulp’eun naleneun
Niga pogosip’ta ipgae maemdola
Honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU
Honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU
Baby! I love you! I’m waiting for you!

Bye, bye, never say goodbye
Ireohke chapji mothajiman
I need you amu maldo mothae I want you
Paraedo dasi paraedo

Niga neomu pogosip’eun nalen
Neomu kyeondigi himdeul naleneun
Neoreul saranghanda ipgae maemdola
Honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU

Niga neomu saenggaknaneun nalen
Kaseum sirigo seulp’eun naleneun
Niga pogosip’ta ipgae maemdola
Honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU
Honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU
Baby! I love you! I’m waiting for you!


I’m really, very foolish
I know of no one other than you
You’re looking at someone else
Yet you have no idea of my feelings like this
I won’t be in your days
I won’t be in the memories either, however
Only you, I looked only at you
And the tears keep coming
As I watch you walking past, I’m still happy
Even though you still don’t know my heart
I should stop this and go
I really want to see the day
I’m withstanding the pain each day
“I love you” is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you
Alone once again, missing for you
Baby, I love you, I’m waiting for you
I won’t be in your days
I won’t be remembered either, however
Only you, I looked only at you
I’m making memories alone
Loving you is like having a beautiful wound
I look at your pretty smile also
But I cannot laugh with you
I’m thinking about you so much everyday
My heart is hurting in all these sad days
“I want to see you” is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you
Alone once again, missing for you
Baby, i’m waiting for you, I love you
Bye bye, never say goodbye
Even though I cannot hold you like this
I need you, I cannot say anything more, I want you
I keep on hoping too, I’ll keep hoping….
I really want to see the day
I’m withstanding the pain each day
“I love you” is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you
I’m thinking about you so much everyday
My heart is hurting in all these sad days
“I want to see you” is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you
Alone once again, missing for you
Baby, I’m waiting for you, I love you

May You'll Find Some Comfort Here

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always some reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh a beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
oh and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel

fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight life

and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lies
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe
in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of the angel

fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

Actually, I find some grammatical errs on the lyric. But I don't know exactly. So I just let it be.

The Father's Song

New entries on my iTunes playlist came from J.ae, with her new album titled "With Me". I take a song titled "아버지의 노래"  (The Father's Song), here is the lyric below (hangeul) :

수 많은 노래들 중 가장 뛰어난 노래
나를 향한 아버지의 노래
아버지의 사랑으로
영원히 내 맘 속에 새겨져 있는
아 버지의 노래

천상의 그 멜로디
창조주의 심포니
주 당신이 부르시네
나를 향해

사랑의 왕을 주신
하늘의 그 신비를
주 당신이 부르시네
나를 향해

I try to translate it with the help of Google Translate (eventhough sometimes it contains some errs). Here is the translation below :

The best songs of many songs
For me my father's song
Father's love
Forever etched in my mind
That Father's Song

The Melody of Heaven
Creator's Symphony
Week is calling you
Towards me

I gave the king
The mystery of the sky
Week is calling you
Towards me


 Reminds me of Daddy. I'm so missing him..

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Full of Wars When Alive, But Full of Repentance When Dead

Selalu dan sering merasakan hal yang sama. Sering ribut ketika masih ada, dan penyesalan yang sangat berlarut ketika kehilangan. Seperti halnya saat saya kehilangan kucing saya karena kesalahan saya sendiri. Seharusnya saya menjaga dia. Dan akhirnya dia pergi dari rumah.

Baru saja sebuah pelajaran datang, dan saya mengacuhkannya hari ini. Entahlah, sepertinya saya menyakiti hati Ibu saya. Namun ya beginilah, saat berkumpul sering sekali bertengkar walaupun untuk hal-hal kecil (lihat post sebelumnya). Saya sering sekali lelah dengan semua ini. Emosi memuncak dan benar-benar ingin melampiaskan kepada sesuatu atau seseorang. Tapi saat saya menyadari bahwa ada satu hal yang menyakiti ibu, secara otomatis hati saya luluh. Saya mengatakan sesuatu yang padahal, saya katakan secara pelan-pelan ke ayah saya. Tapi mungkin ibu dengar dan yeah I guess I've broken her heart. It makes me sick. Saya lebih baik gantung diri saja. That's better than seeing her cry. Saya tidak kuat melihat ibu menangis (melihat guru menangis saja hati sudah luluh perlahan).

Entahlah, saya sering bingung. Saya juga merasa tidak adil kalau saya harus menangis karena ibu hanya untuk hari ibu saja. Dan selebihnya saat pulang ke rumah, seperti biasa ada lagi pertengkaran ini itu untuk hal kecil atau besar. Ayah saya adalah seorang yang cuek. Plegmatis. Tidak begitu peduli dengan hal-hal seperti itu. Berbeda dengan saya yang melankolis, pasti mudah sakit hati. Saya terus bertanya kenapa dan kenapa. Kenapa tidak bisa akur?

Pelajaran itu baru saja saya dapatkan beberapa hari yang lalu. De Fajar kehilangan ibunya untuk selamanya. Dan dia sempat berkata bahwa "Sebelum terlambat, sayangi ibu kalian". Pesan yang melekat di benak saya namun mengapa masih bisa saya ingkari? Mengapa masih sering bertengkar untuk hal-hal kecil?

Alunan lagu Bunda dari Melly Goeslaw mengalun di otak saya. Mengingatkan saya dengan penampilan saya dan Prilla di konser Purwacaraka beberapa hari yang lalu. Saya juga ingat saat saya menampilkan lagu Bunda dengan teman-teman di acara sekolah. Ibu tidak datang dan saya kecewa. Kekecewaan memuncak saat di rumah ibu berkata, "Buat apa nyanyi-nyanyi kaya gitu segala kalo masih suka ngga nurut? Masih suka ngebentak balik, masih suka susah dikasih tau?!".  Tuhan, kenapa tidak kau goncangkan saja dunia ini?

Saya ingat waktu kecil begitu saya dimanja oleh ibu dan ayah saya. Begitu semuanya terlihat sangat indah, saat masih bermain di taman bermain. Ayunan, luncuran. Semuanya sangat indah. Tak terasa air mata saya menetes. Saya ingin kembali ke masa itu. Saya berharap saya menemukan sebuah mesin waktu. Dan keputusan saya untuk kembali ke masa itu tidak akan saya sesali. Saya ingin seperti dulu. Tertawa seperti dulu. Ya, seperti dulu lagi..


Tapi diatas semuanya, saya mengerti. I got the lesson.
De Fajar, thanks a lot. You've given me a great lesson.
"Love your mom before it's too late..." Saya akan mencobanya.

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Photography : Fantaisie Improptu

My theme for the session is Fantaisie Improptu. A famous piece composed by the great composer of romantic, Frederick Chopìn. Left hand plays 6/4 beat and right hand plays 4/4 beat. Must be confusing! But that's what makes it so unique.

The original picture :


AF 2.8, manual focus (15cm).
Edited with Picnik : saturation and contrast level, cross process, and focal black/white. The result is below..


Wow! Dramatic!

Photography : Ordinary Sky to Van Gogh's Painting

Original file seemed so ordinary. Nothing was so special. Just blue sky, yeah taken from the 2nd floor of school at 9.00 AM. It was a light blue sky, a bit cloudy (might be cirrus).
Here is the original file :


No saturation level changes, no cross process. Natural as taken by phone camera. But, I edited it with Picnik.com and just clicked "Auto Correct" button, then automatically the picture went 'Van Gogh'!


The picture above reminded me to Michaelangelo or Vincent van Gogh. It seemed like ceiling mural at St.Peter or any cathedrals in this world (or at least Christian Pop music video with the evening sky as bgv). Using auto correct and cross process, the result was so much satisfying for me. Unbelievable! No need to set the saturation level, contrast level, or blur areas!

So outstanding, I can't stand for the sky..

Friday, May 7, 2010

Because I'm Weary

마음을 두드리는 꿈이라는 먼 훗날의 이야기들
두 손을 뻗어봐도 닿을 수 없는 어렴풋한 풍경들

Because Im weary, Cause Im weary.
Because Im weary, Cause Im weary.

숨이 막힐 듯 내달려가는 이 세상 속에서
홀로 귀를 막고 어린 시절의 노래를 부른다.
끝도 시작도 없이 자라난 기억의 숲에서
이리저리 헤매다 멍울진 가슴을 달랜다.

Because Im weary, Cause Im weary.

힘겨운 오늘 하루 유난히도 떨려오는 심장소리
얼굴은 찡그려도 지울 수 없는 서먹한 두근거림

Because I love you, Cause I love you.
Because I love you, Cause I love you.

시린 바람결이 옷깃을 뚫고 가슴에 닿으면
차마 잊지 못한 그 때 일들이 눈 앞을 가린다.
어리석은 방황과 고뇌의 평행선 위에서
작은 땀방울을 닦아내리며 숨을 고른다.

Because I love you, Cause I love you.

숨이 멎을 듯 내달려가는 이 세상 속에서
홀로 귀를 막고 어린 시절의 노래를 부른다.
끝도 시작도 없이 자라난 기억의 숲에서
이리저리 헤매다 멍울진 가슴을 달랜다.

Because Im weary, Cause Im weary.
Because Im weary, Cause Im weary.

The old and aged story called “dream” now knocks on my heart..
The familiar scenery that’s too far away to be touched


because I`m weary cause I`m weary
because I`m weary cause I`m weary

Among the clingy world that’s walled out

I plug my ears and sing the song from my childhood

Within the memory of forest that has no start or end
Then I soothe my bruised heart from wandering in the forest


because I`m weary cause I`m weary


Today, another hard day…
The unexpected sound of thumping heart
The thump that can’t be forgotten even if I frown my face


Because I love you, cause I love you
Because I love you, cause I love you


Once the cold wind touches the heart
The unforgettable events covers my eyes
Naïve heart, the night full of trouble and on top of the lines
I’m gasping for breath as I wipe the sweat
Because I love you, cause I love you

Among the clingy world that’s walled out
I plug my ears and sing the song from my childhood

Within the memory of forest that has no start or end
Then I soothe my bruised heart from wandering in the forest


because I`m weary cause I`m weary
because I`m weary cause I`m weary

Ready Go!

Light, camera, action!

RRRR Ready Go!
Ready Go! Ready Go!
난 세상의 주인공!
Oh oh oh oh (Light, camera, action)
RRRR Ready Go!
Ready Go! Ready Go!
넌 행운의 angel
AAA angel
처음 본 순간부터 아찔했던거야
나도 어쩔 수 없어 되돌릴 수 없어
아침이 bling bling 올 때 마다 난 빙빙
돌아버리지 going to be crazy
혹시라도 나의 심장소리가
들킬까봐 사실 두려워

Oh, Ready Go! Ready Go!
Ready Go! 준비됐어
이제부터 난 달라질꺼니까
Oh, Ready Go! Ready Go!
Ready Go! 준비됐어
지금부터 내 모든 걸 다 보여줄께
RRRR Ready Go!
Ready Go! Ready Go!
난 세상의 주인공!
Oh oh oh oh (Light, camera, action)
RRRR Ready Go! Ready Go! Ready Go!
넌 행운의 angel
AAA angel
그댄 나 but, 내 꿈은 destiny
상상 할 때마다 심장이 쿵쿵
나의 머리가 boom boom
너와 나 history 이미 시작됐어
세상이란 film에 내 모든 걸 담겠어
정말로 우린 해낼 수가 있어 둘이
듣고있는지 널 위한 melody
혹시라도 니가 지쳐버리면
포기할까 정말 두려워

내 머리가 빙글빙글
온 몸이 찌릿찌릿
하지만 내 꿈이 나를 다
일어서게 하는걸
주저앉을시간이 없어
내 전부를 다 걸고 싶어
언제나 dream! My only one!
드디어 나를 찾은거야
Action!

Oh, Ready Go!
Ready Go!
Ready Go!

Starstrukk

Nice legs, Daisy dukes, makes a man go [whistle]
Thats the way they all come through like [whistle whistle]
Low-cut, see-through shirts that make you [whistles]
Thats the way she come through like [whistles]
Cause I just set them up, just set them up, just set them up to knock them down
Cause I just set them up, just set them up, just set them up to knock them down

I think I should know how to make love to something innocent without leaving my fingerprints out,now
L-O-V-E’s just another word I never learned to pronounce
How, do I say I’m sorry cause the word is never gonna come out now
L-O-V-E’s just another word i never learned to pronounce
Tight jeans, Double D’s makin’ me go [whistles]
All the people on the street know [whistles whistles]
Iced-out, lit-up make the kids go [whistles]
All the people on the street know [whistle whistle]

Cause I just set them up, just set them up, just set them up to knock them down
Cause I just set them up, just set them up, just set them up to knock them down

I think I should know how to make love to something innocent without leaving my fingerprints out now
L-O-V-E’s just another word i never learned to pronounce
how, do I say I’m sorry cause the word is never gonna come out now
L-O-V-E’s just another word I never learned to pronounce

You know that type of sh*t
Just don’t work on me
Whistlin’ and tryin’ to Flirt with me
Don’t take it personally
‘Cause we were never in love
It doesn’t really matter
Who you say you are
Singin’ out the window
Of your car
Find another girl across the Bar
‘Cause L-O-V-E is not what this was.

I think I should know how to make love to something innocent without leaving my fingerprints out now
L-O-V-E’s just another word I never learned to pronounce
How do I say I’m sorry ’cause the word is never gonna come out
now L-O-V-E’s just another word I’ll never learn to pronounce

또르르 (Rolling)

또르르 눈물이 흘러간다 또르르 또르르르
소리없는 아픔을 이기지도 못한체
파르르 손끝이 떨려온다 파르르 파르르르
따스했던 시간을 기억하나봐
사랑을 하면 더 예뻐진대
사랑을 하면 좀 달라진대
어떻게 해야 내 안의 사랑이 더 예뻐질까요
생각을 하면 눈물이 나고
눈물이 나면 또 생각만을
그런 사람이 곁에 있다는게 다행이죠
스르르 두 눈이 감겨온다 스르르 스르르르
고운 미소 향기에 꿈을 꾸고 싶었나봐
또르르 사랑이 흘러간다 또르르 또르르르
맘이 시려울만큼 좋아하나봐
사랑을 하면 더 예뻐진대
사랑을 하면 좀 달라진대
어떻게 해야 내 안의 사랑이 더 예뻐질까요
생각을 하면 눈물이 나고
눈물이 나면 또 생각만을
그런 사람이 곁에 있다는게 다행이죠
가슴에 차가운 니가 내리면
못본듯이 그저 웃어야 해요
행여 니가 돌아볼까봐 항상 그 자리를 맴도는
어리석어도 행복한 사랑이 좋아서
사랑을 하면 더 예뻐진대
사랑을 하면 좀 달라진대
어떻게 해야 내 안의 사랑이 더 예뻐질까요
생각을 하면 눈물이 나고
눈물이 나면 또 생각만을
그런 사람이 곁에 있다는게 다행이죠


Rolling… tears are flowing, rolling, rolling
Like the silent pain hasn’t won
Trembling… fingertips are trembling, trembling, trembling
I must be thinking about the happy, warm times
They say if you love, you become prettier
They say if you love, you change a little
What do I have to do to make the love inside me prettier?
When I think about it, tears come
When tears come, what comes to mind is
It’s a relief that I have a person like that by my side
Gently… my eyes are closing, gently, gently
I must have wanted to dream about the scent of that smile
Rolling… love is flowing, rolling, rolling
I must like him to the point where my mind is cold
They say if you love, you become prettier
They say if you love, you change a little
What do I have to do to make the love inside me prettier?
When I think about it, tears come
When tears come, what comes to mind is
It’s a relief that I have a person like that by my side
When you, who is cold, get off my chest,
I have to laugh as if I didn’t see anything
“Maybe you’ll come back” always repeats at that place
Even though it’s foolish because I like a happy love
They say if you love, you become prettier
They say if you love, you change a little
What do I have to do to make the love inside me prettier?
When I think about it, tears come
When tears come, what comes to mind is
It’s a relief that I have a person like that by my side

Ngegombal Lagi (Next Chapter from Facebook Note)

*Tidak belum ditujukan bagi siapa-siapa hahaha iseng saja

You're a love volcano and I'm a village on your feet. You're erupting lava of passions, flowing through my heart, exploding the passions and finally burning and melting my heart like a burning home and collapsed tree.

You're a rocket, bringing me up so high, launching and blasting against gravity. Taking me so high and close to the space of love, making me fly so high and then, I'll be so free. I'll be so breathless but you'll be every breathe I take then.

*Udahan ah, sejak kapan sih saya belajar gombal -_-" zz

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Baseball :)

Materi olahraga buat siang tadi adalah baseball (harap diingat ya, baseball ngga sama kaya kasti). Lantas, saya sebagai orang yang 'biasanya' agak males-malesan kalo olahraga, tiba-tiba jadi suka sama baseball. Memang dulu waktu masih 小学校 saya suka main kasti sama teman-teman sekolah (walopun tetep aja masih lemot, tapi kalo sudah bisa nampar bolanya ya.. lumayan lah!). Sedikit mengenang mungkin ya, tapi agak seneng juga karena sekarang mainnya baseball bukan kasti :P


Harusnya waktu latihan, pake bola yang kaya gini nih.. Tapi berhubung satu dan dua hal, akhirnya terpaksalah kita pake bola tennis >.<

Hahahaha! Kocak dah! Bola tennis yang saya beli di depan komplek perumahan saya (kebetulan ada toko olahraga), harganya 5 ribu satu bola. Kalo beli satu pak (isi 4) harganya jadi 32,500 IDR (kok lebih mahal ya?). Tapi gapapa. Bola tennisnya warna putih, saya kasih label supaya ngga hilang. "Kazumon", label bolanya begitu. Waktu teman pakai bola tennis yang saya, jadi serasa pegang bola Pokemon.
"Mana Pokemonnya? Ayo cepat keluar, Kazumon!"
Maka saya pun loncat-loncat kaya Pikachu kesetrum setrikaan.

Entah kenapa, muncul ketertarikan di bidang olahraga yang ini. Jarang-jarang loh saya tertarik banget sama olahraga (kinestetik saya jelek banget!). Mungkin karena satu dan banyak hal (banyak film yang nayangin tentang baseball juga sih), jadi pengen ikutan main :P
Tadi baru belajar tentang posisi tubuh yang baik, cara pegang bat sama cara ayunin bat supaya kena ke bolanya. Waktu saya latihan sama Iki, saya ngga bisa ngelempar bola yang bener (kalo lempar pasti miring ke arah saya, jadi ngelempar ke diri sendiri). Dan pertamanya waktu saya coba mukul juga sering gagal. Tapi berkat kerjasama kita berdua akhirnya bisa juga tuh mental bolanya sampe agak jauh hehehehe..

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Starting Photography Session

Well, I guess I'll start learning more about photography. Since I've taken that accidentally cool photo, it influenced me to take more pictures.

The first two pictures must have been posted before on my previous post. It told about how did I accidentally take the picture and re-touched those 2 pictures on Picnik.com . Still, Picnik was in Indonesian (and I was lately aware that Picnik has been acquired with Google, so that might be why Picnik automatically translated into Indonesian).


Before edited on Picnik. Automatically blurred. I didn't set anything. I was using my phone camera, so it must had been just standard camera settings (size 1024x768 px, auto-flash, auto-white balance). I wasn't satisfied with the picture yet so I decided to edit the picture on Picnik.


Yep, looked better than the previous one. I was satisfied enough with the result. Using simple effects (cross process, focal blur, contrast, and additional text on the right-bottom side). I didn't know how could it make the shrubs blurred whereas my face wasn't blurred because I didn't set anything :P a bit surprised, but amazing. Amazing for me as an amateur beginner photographer (I didn't think about professional photography techniques firstly).

Just several days ago, I was attending "Public Speaking" Workshop at Arion Swiss Bel Hotel, Bandung with my brother. Finding a Parlor Grand Piano at the lobby of the hotel, spontaneously we were surprised! So itchy to play some pieces on those black-white keys! But depending on the situation (and that gloomy oldie wrinkled annoying bellboy kept looking cynically at us so made me annoyed and shitty grumbled), we just took a photo of my brother playing that piano.


The original picture. Note the over-blurred areas. The picture had been not rotated yet, you gotta turn your head 90-degree-clockwise to see the picture in normal view. The picture looked so.. Umh, I thought nothing was special, else the blurred-areas. So again, I re-touched the picture on Picnik.


I saw blurred-areas, then thought "Why don't I make bigger blurred-areas if so? Or using focal blur, I want to focus it on koko's (brother) face". Focal focus point, cross process, focal BW settings, and additional text on left-bottom side. Tadaa! Actually, I was bending on my knee when I took the picture. *Sighs* extreme angle positioning to capture great picture from amazing angles. I didn't want to take pictures in ordinary ways (basically landscape and irrational focus point). I also tried to sharpen the face area. And finally, the result was.. yeah simply gorgeous :P

Gonna take other pictures, soon :)