Pathetically Monotonous

We (representing my friends who think the same thing) have seen the changes and the differences. The conclusion : 'It' doesn't work or get better day by day. How did we know that? We've stayed there for a long time. For me, I've been there for 4 years. I must have seen so many changes happened, and it just goes on the wrong side. Getting worse day by day. Doesn't it suck?

Working on the same job (no better changes, no fair payment either), playing the same song, performing the same performances on the same narrow stage, doing the same shitty works. Hey, wait a sec. They hire the same persons in each shows! Why do they do that?

"You've been playing so good so we trust you."

"You're easy to be hired. We all know you well."

"Ah, no need preparation anymore. Just perform!"

"We believe that you'll perform the best. You've performed so many performances. Just perform."

"Well.. Can we pay by this snack (kids snacks)?"

"Because you've been used and we trust that you'll work for us."

What the fvk!! The hell with that! We've been used, and.. Oh God, I gotta get outta the place!

"Prepare the instruments!"

"You should bring your own cable!"

"Find the tripod!"

We're performers, but they urge us to prepare everything by ourselves. No better services. The place must be disqualified as a stage. Shitty damnfully disgusting!

The most disgusting thing called "You-mock-you-eat". They insult us, mock us, but they'll need us in an event.

"Ah, you guys just wasting your time singing and playing the shitty music!"
"Go to the class! Music is not so important!"
"You're a naughty student, so naughty.."

In other times :

"Hey, you guys gotta play the music for the ............ event. Can you perform for us, please..."

"Go to the music room! You guys gotta prepare for some pieces!"
"You're so clever and genius in music! I guess you should perform us some pieces.."

Hypocrite! Mid-finger up for 'em.

Because I'm Stupid

내 머리는 너무나 나빠서
너 하나밖에 난 모르고
다른 사람을 보고있는 넌
이런 내마음도 모르겠지
너의 하루에 나란 없겠지
또 추억조차 없겠지만
너만 바라만 보고있는 난
자꾸 눈물이 흐르고있어

너의 뒷모습을 보는것도 난 행복이야
아직 나의 마음을 몰라도
끝내 스치듯이 가도

니가 너무 보고싶은 날엔
너무 견디기 힘든 날에는
너를 사랑한다 입가에 맴돌아
혼자 다시 또 crying for you
혼자 다시 또 missing for you
Baby! I love you! I'm waiting for you!

너의 하루에 난 없겠지
또 기억조차 없겠지만
너만 바라만 보고있는 나
혼자 추억을 만들고 있어

내겐 사랑이란 아름다운 상처같아
너의 예쁜 미소를 보아도
함께 난 웃지도 못해

니가 너무 생각나는 날엔
가슴 시리고 슬픈 날에는
니가 보고싶다 입가에 맴돌아
혼자 다시 또 crying for you
혼자 다시 또 missing for you
Baby! I love you! I'm waiting for you!

Bye bye never say good bye
이렇게 잡지 못하지만
I need you 아무 말도 못해 I want you 바래도 다시 바래도

니가 너무 보고싶은 날엔
너무 견디기 힘든 날에는
너를 사랑한다 입가에 맴돌아
혼자 다시 또 crying for you
니가 너무 생각나는 날엔
가슴 시리고 슬픈 날에는
니가 보고싶다 입가에 맴돌아
혼자 다시 또crying for you
혼자 다시 또 missing for you
Baby! I love you! I'm waiting for you! 

Nae meoriga neomuna nappaseo
Neo hanapakke nan moreugo
Tareun sarameun pogoittneun neon
Ireon naema-eumdo moreugettji
Neoui harue naran eoptgettji
Tto chu’eokjoch’a eoptgettjiman
Neoman paraman pogoittneun nan
Chakku nunmuli heureugoisseo
Neoui dwaetmoseubeul poneungeotdo nan haengbokiya
Ajik naui ma-eumeul mollado
Kkeutnae seuch’ideusi kado
Niga neomu pogosip’eun nalen
Neomu kyeondigi himdeul naleneun
Neoreul saranghanda ipgae maemdola
Honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU
Honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU
Baby! I love you! I’m waiting for you!
Neoui harue nan eoptgettji
Tto kieokjoch’a eoptgettjiman
Neoman paraman pogoittneun nan
Honja ch’ueokeul mandeulgo isseo
Naegen sarangiran areumdaun sangch’eokat’a
Neoui yeppeun misoreul poado
Hamkke nan utjido mothae
Niga neomu saenggaknaneun nalen
Kaseum sirigo seulp’eun naleneun
Niga pogosip’ta ipgae maemdola
Honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU
Honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU
Baby! I love you! I’m waiting for you!
Bye, bye, never say goodbye
Ireohke chapji mothajiman
I need you amu maldo mothae I want you
Paraedo dasi paraedo
Niga neomu pogosip’eun nalen
Neomu kyeondigi himdeul naleneun
Neoreul saranghanda ipgae maemdola
Honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU
Niga neomu saenggaknaneun nalen
Kaseum sirigo seulp’eun naleneun
Niga pogosip’ta ipgae maemdola
Honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU
Honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU
Baby! I love you! I’m waiting for you!

I’m really, very foolish
I know of no one other than you
You’re looking at someone else
Yet you have no idea of my feelings like this
I won’t be in your days
I won’t be in the memories either, however
Only you, I looked only at you
And the tears keep coming
As I watch you walking past, I’m still happy
Even though you still don’t know my heart
I should stop this and go
I really want to see the day
I’m withstanding the pain each day
“I love you” is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you
Alone once again, missing for you
Baby, I love you, I’m waiting for you
I won’t be in your days
I won’t be remembered either, however
Only you, I looked only at you
I’m making memories alone
Loving you is like having a beautiful wound
I look at your pretty smile also
But I cannot laugh with you
I’m thinking about you so much everyday
My heart is hurting in all these sad days
“I want to see you” is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you
Alone once again, missing for you
Baby, i’m waiting for you, I love you
Bye bye, never say goodbye
Even though I cannot hold you like this
I need you, I cannot say anything more, I want you
I keep on hoping too, I’ll keep hoping….
I really want to see the day
I’m withstanding the pain each day
“I love you” is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you
I’m thinking about you so much everyday
My heart is hurting in all these sad days
“I want to see you” is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you
Alone once again, missing for you
Baby, I’m waiting for you, I love you

May You'll Find Some Comfort Here

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always some reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh a beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
oh and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight life
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lies
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe
in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

Actually, I find some grammatical errs on the lyric. But I don't know exactly. So I just let it be.

The Father's Song

New entries on my iTunes playlist came from J.ae, with her new album titled "With Me". I take a song titled "아버지의 노래"  (The Father's Song), here is the lyric below (hangeul) :

수 많은 노래들 중 가장 뛰어난 노래
나를 향한 아버지의 노래
아버지의 사랑으로
영원히 내 맘 속에 새겨져 있는
아 버지의 노래

천상의 그 멜로디
창조주의 심포니
주 당신이 부르시네
나를 향해

사랑의 왕을 주신
하늘의 그 신비를
주 당신이 부르시네
나를 향해

I try to translate it with the help of Google Translate (eventhough sometimes it contains some errs). Here is the translation below :

The best songs of many songs
For me my father's song
Father's love
Forever etched in my mind
That Father's Song

The Melody of Heaven
Creator's Symphony
Week is calling you
Towards me

I gave the king
The mystery of the sky
Week is calling you
Towards me

 Reminds me of Daddy. I'm so missing him..