Best Friend or .....

We are classmates. Yes, she and I. And I wonder why there's a feeling growing for her in me.

As for now, she's my best friend. Yeah, I consider her a best friend. She's nice, smart, humble, and.. well I don't know but she has something that makes her unique. I do believe that everyone is unique in their own way but, she's unique and yeah, she's just unique and I like her uniqueness. She's simply a quiet girl. Sometimes we have a small talk--about classes, assignments, music, games, or whatnot. I love that moment--the moment we have small talk while enjoying our meal. We've had a small group discussion about the subject we study and I like the moment of togetherness we have during the discussion. I usually sit facing her, or next to her. Actually I prefer sitting next to her, that I could feel the closeness between she and I. She reads her book and I browse the internet on my iPad. However, I can't take my eyes off of her that I secretly stare at her while hiding my face behind my iPad.

I'm not sure whether or not I'm falling in love right now. One thing I have to confess is that, I think I like her. I like her and I like being with her, but somehow I know that becoming her best friend would be better, due to some reasons. We've been friends and I'm afraid things won't be the same after I confess my feeling to her. This must sound awkward but yeah, this is true. This is what happens to me. I'm afraid that we can't be friends anymore. But I like her. And that feeling grows bigger and bigger each day and it starts to kill me slowly. What should I do then? What do I have to do when I eventually realize that I really am deeply falling in love with her? It's okay to be rejected but it's not okay to lose a friend. In other words, I don't want to lose her.

Gosh! What should I do now?

*nowplaying: Jason Chen - Best Friend*